Introspection....

2003-03-16 - 6:29 p.m.

It has been a rather introspective couple of days... mainly because my friends are big poopie heads who don't like to leave their apartments on weekends ;-).

Yesterday was the annual St. Patrick's Day Parade in Atlanta. I was supposed to 'maybe' go there with a few pals, but the weather was crappy, NC State was playing at 1:30, and it was hard to wake up and yada yada yada. So I ventured over there alone. In all fairness, I knew that James and Bridget (yup) were there, but I didn't want to play the role of 'third wheel' (despite the fact that James yelled at me later for not calling him, because it wasn't like a romantic, stuffy dinner date or anything, just a freakin' parade!). But anyway, I decided to go out there alone, and brave the potential mockery I might have to face (okay, I wasn't actually worried). I gotta tell you, I had so much fun. It was as though Atlanta was a small Irish neighborhood where everybody knew everybody. I felt very welcome! It was a LOT of fun. The bonus was that I didn't have to worry about anybody else being cold, hungry, bored, etc.

Then today, once again, I spent the day by myself. I decided to go out to Stone Mountain and hike up it. It's not rediculously long - about 1.4 miles or so each way. It was good. I felt refreshed and alive by the time it was over. Today was a GREAT day for a hike.

So once that was over, it was still pretty early and still gorgeous out, so I decided to go out to the park. I gotta tell you, I just LOVE Piedmont Park. It's a great little place where lots of people of very different walks of life go to hang out. I never went my first year here because Mikey told me it was dangerous and that people died there all the time (he said the same thing about Buckhead). But when I stopped to consider that it's in what I would consider to be the second gayest part of town, and if it's the middle of the day, then whatever, I'm not about to be afraid for my life. But anyway, I went for a nice stroll and it was GRAND! Of course, now I'm EXHAUSTED! I can't wait to get home so I could read. The only reason why I'm on campus is because I have a few things to take care of.

Oh, totally unrelated note, my e-mail is fixed so you should be able to send me messages once again. It was busted from Wednesday until some point this weekend. I don't know if anybody tried to write me, but I didn't get it if you did, so please resend it :-).

Hmm... there's more I wanted to get into, but I don't feel like writing much more. So I guess I could be brief.

I got to talking with James last night (and several points over the past week) about relationships. He's been pondering the whole thing a good amount since he and Lauren broke it off. Anyway, we talked about my upcoming trip back to NJ, and Mike's last visit here and stuff, and I mentioned that while I miss the sex (both particularly with him and in general), it's not what I miss most. What I really miss is just the time spent doing nothing. James commented that he never had that. He never had somebody who he liked to just do nothing with. He said there always had to be an activity - eating, watching TV, etc. I find that strange, I didn't realize that it was that uncommon. But then, it wasn't that in all of my relatioships, either. From the beginning I knew that what I had was special, but I guess I didn't realize quite how special it is.

Okay, so that was hardly short. Eh, c'est la vie....