Itsy Bitsy, Teeny, Weeny....

2003-04-09 - 11:37 a.m.

Wow, Mizerychick, go you! I still don't have the guts to wear a bikini in front of people - unless it's covered under shorts and a T shirt. I own one, I bought it when I was 16 and have worn it all of about 6 times.

Actually, I'm lying, I slipped into it at the end of last summer when Mike came to visit me. Weird, because I was somehow comfortable enough to show that much of my body to a boy who I was trying to impress. It's only weird because at that point he hadn't seen me naked, so as far as he knew, I looked just as good naked as I do in clothing (HA!). So I'm still shocked I did that, and even more shocked that he didn't run away right there :-P. But then, the top is effectively a padded, push up bra, so I can't imagine he looked too low on my body. In fact, I think his comment was, 'wow, they look great' ;-).

Personally, I'm all about the mesh middle. They do all sorts of patterns with it, and it's always flattering. My one actually makes me look like I have a defined waste! Couple it with a sexy sarong and, lo and behold, I have an hourglass figure! This is big news from the girl whose ribcage is probably wider than her hips and is shaped like a boy from the ribs down.

Which reminds me, I want to lose 10 pounds before the end of May, when I have that wedding I'm reading in. So I have, yet again, started keeping track of my points. Hopefully, with a realistic, tangible, definite goal, I will be able to stay motivated. 10 pounds in 7 weeks is definitely possible, and actually a very healthy rate to lose weight.

Which reminds me, I found chocolate macaroons that are 2 cookies for 1 point. And they're YUMMY! I had 4 last night :-P. They're not going to fill you up, but they satisfy that sweet, chocolaty, chewy craving. There are other varieties that are about 1 point per cookie, also not bad.

Wow, lots of reminders :-P.

Paulisdead - I really like that picture of Brook. It looks like something that should be in a magazine. Who took it? And can I get them to take a picture of me? Is she all wrapped up in sheets, that's what it looks like. I always wanted 'bedroom' pictures taken of me. Not trashy. I'd be naked, or maybe in something satin, but classy. I'll wait until I grow my hair out again, because I have visions of cascading hair. Of course, that could take years, and my body won't be a nice little 24 year old person's body anymore. Sigh. Anyway, I'd never pay a lot of money for photographs, and I don't think it's something I'd have one of my friends do for me. I can't imagine any of you would want to see me naked. Of if you were willing to take the pictures, that you wouldn't talk about my fat with one another and make fun of me. Yes, I'm paranoid, incredibly self conscious, and have no faith in people :-P.

Oh, and with all the chemicals I play with every day (mmm... acrylamide and nitrophenol), the super-high levels of smog in Atlanta, and the fact that I grew up in a house with parents who smoked, a lot, in New Jersey, I'm not too worried about one mini cigar. As an engineer, I feel confident in my ability to neglect that small amount when compared to the greater whole:-P.