Six months already :-)

2003-02-10 - 7:54 a.m.

Today marks six months for me and Mike. I gotta tell you, I'm really giddy and excited about it. I really thought that after 2 long term relationships that I wouldn't be so excited about such a seemingly small milestone. But it appears that I'm not so jaded by the past as to stop appreciating the present. This is a very good thing :-).

I spent some of my insomniac hours last night trying to figure out what I like best about this relationship and why I think it has lasted this long. There's a lot that I can't describe, it's just a feeling I get. But what I think makes this work really well is that there is no obligation - neither of us feels bound by the other. We do not talk on the phone every day (though it's pretty damn close), neither of us minds if the other goes out and parties like it's 1999, there's no need to 'check in', etc. No rules have been laid down as far as any of that goes. So why is that a good thing? Because it means that when we do talk, when we do 'check in', it's because we sincerely want to, not out of some weird habit or obligation. It's nice. It's like that song, "Hold on loosely, but don't let go." Plus he's super cute and we make an adorable couple.

There are a ton of other wonderful things about our relationship, but I don't want to bore you all with a sappy ass entry here. I did enough of that in the past six months ;-).

The good news is that I'll see him on Friday!!! He finally booked his flight. I'm not entirely sure how long he's staying, but I'm assuming through Tuesday since that's what we talked about. Either way, I'm psyched!!!!

I just wish I wasn't so sleepy....

On Friday I made a resolution - to start getting up early and getting more of my work done. So I was up when my clock said 6:00 (so it was really like 5:45) and I walked in the door at about 7:40. I'm sleepy, and my breakfast seems to have upset my tummy, but all in all I'm optimistic. My depressed mood that has kept me in bed in the morning has started to impact my work. What's worse, people are starting to notice. It's very noticible when I don't produce mass amounts of results because, well, I normally do. I could chalk it up to reading/library time, but that would just be a lie. Not a total lie, mind you, since I did wander off to the library last Wednesday and get two new textbooks which I have been picking through. But I haven't been as good as I should be. So anyway, the moral of the story is that I'm going to suck it up and drop the negativity. I don't need it, it's not helping me, and I'm better off without it. Of course, it's going to be tough for the first few days. I have a tummy ache today from eating breakfast when I didn't sleep enough. But I'll be okay tomorrow.

I suppose I should go and be productive, since that was the whole point of getting my butt out of bed before the ass crack of dawn and all. Sigh....